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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
1:51 am	red, red wineeeeeeeeeee it is currently 1:52 am. i am enjoying a nice chicken parm and spaghetti meal along with a glass of fine red wine. jacqui called and i missed her call and now i want nothing more thant o talk to her. and all of you . i befriended dick. i don't know who he is. i miss you guys. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 20th, 2006
9:32 am	imthedeafone: oh my god imthedeafone: i had an 830 today imthedeafone: and i went to bed around 6am Aramingoh22: oh no Auto response from imthedeafone: it is currently 5:42 am and i have an 8:30am exam. imthedeafone: and that woudl have been fine but i was 15 minutes late to my exam imthedeafone: because we had this huge huge reserachpaperp Aramingoh22: did you wake up? imthedeafone: that's why i staedy awake all night imthedeafone: yeah i woke up at 750 and skipped my shower imthedeafone: but my pritner doesn't work so i went to gallagher the student center to print it out imthedeafone: and it wouldn't open imthedeafone: it said i had likemalignant files or something imthedeafone: it was like would you like to translate this into japanese> imthedeafone: and this is literally what it looked like when i tried to open it, no matter what langauage i tried ti translate it into imthedeafone: jhasdfjajg Aramingoh22: ooooooohhhhhhhh nooooooooo imthedeafone: there was literally like a palm tree island scene in there Aramingoh22: was it due for that class excam you had to go to imthedeafone: yeah! for the 830! Aramingoh22: LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl Aramingoh22: OH NO Aramingoh22: WHAT DID YOU DO imthedeafone: and like imthedeafone: they had to call the student who is the head of thec omputer things imthedeafone: and he told me all these techniques but tnohing worked imthedeafone: and literalyl as he's walking through the door, it stops frezzing up and it works! imthedeafone: like imthedeafone: after he walked in the door, one file after another started pouring out of the printer imthedeafone: and he ranfrom acorss campus becuase i told him calmly on the phone at 8:29 that i had an 830 class taht it was due for and i was exactly one minute away from a wfinal Aramingoh22: OHHHHMYYYYGOSHHHHHHHHH Aramingoh22: KOCH Aramingoh22: HTHATS INSANE Aramingoh22: WHAT DID HE SAY? imthedeafone: like he clicked it because i just meoved out of the way so he woudln't think iw as an idiot imthedeafone: and that i was trying to dupe him into coming into the lab because i had like a crush on him or something imthedeafone: not that i realyl could have because i'm pretty sure he's not into girls, if you know what i mean imthedeafone: but anyway i was like praying that it WOULDN"T work just so they wodul'ntall think i was an idiot imthedeafone: everyon ein the lab was looking at me becaseu i couldn't get it to print and i had to use the phone and call the specialisty Aramingoh22: YEA I WOULD WISH THAT TOOO Aramingoh22: oh noooo Aramingoh22: lol was he like um... it works imthedeafone: yeah imthedeafone: and iw as just like "thank you so much" an dhe goes "....i didn't do anything." imthedeafone: and i wa slike eff imthedeafone: http://www.comcast.net/news/national/index.jsp?cat=DOMESTIC&fn=/2006/12/20/545689.html&cvqh=itn_premarital Aramingoh22: LOOLLLLLLLLLLLLo Aramingoh22: was he mad? imthedeafone: wiat are you at home or at school imthedeafone: he wa sjust like confused imthedeafone: as to why i called him over and he came running to save me from the treacherous paper imthedeafone: when i already worked Aramingoh22: did you explain to thim it wasnt a and there was gibberish and A PALM TREE!?!?!?! imthedeafone: HAHHAHHAHA imthedeafone: like i tried imthedeafone: i was just like imthedeafone: no you don't understand imthedeafone: it wasn't in english imthedeafone: there was literally 7 or 8 characters on there imthedeafone: and it was gibberish and offering me to try to tranaslate it to japanese and russian and korean because it didn't comprehend that my entire 12 page paper was supposed to be english and not symbols displaying travel scenes across america on it Aramingoh22: HHHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA Aramingoh22: /LAfogoolaololaolaololaoaoolololollol Aramingoh22: what happened when you got to your exam late? imthedeafone: haha the door was propped open imthedeafone: and my guy friend called me from class like WHILE HE WAS TAKING THE FINAL apparently or something and he was like um where are you? we're all in here, taking the final imthedeafone: and i'm like why the hell are you on the phone imthedeafone: and he's like we do what we want int his class. you kno wthat. imthedeafone: so i just walked in 18 minutes late imthedeafone: and she just handed me the paper with instructiosn for the easiest final i've ever taken imthedeafone: but i dindt hear the instructions becaus eh said it on my deaf side so i had to ask somenoe when i sat down imthedeafone: to which i got a SHHHHHHHHH from several angry, disrupted students imthedeafone: but then some kid like this black kid from NY who only dates white girls and is obsessed with himself imthedeafone: and he calls me baby girl and is openly obsesed with me and has tried to kiss me while i have been on the phoen talking to justin on numerous occasions imthedeafone: ok so the final started at 830 imthedeafone: he walks in at 924! imthedeafone: LIKE THATS AN HOUR LATE FOR A TWO HOUR FINAL imthedeafone: and we were supposed to have blue books to write the essays in and he didn't even have one hahahhahaha Aramingoh22: oh my hgosh htis is fthe finiest thing EVERRRRRR Auto response from imthedeafone: it is currently 5:42 am and i have an 8:30am exam. Aramingoh22: why was he late?????! imthedeafone: i don tknow Aramingoh22: what class was this for imthedeafone: he just came in in like a perfectly matching outfit with perfectly manicured nails and gelled and showered hair and like contacts in, cologne, matching earrings to go with his rings (bling bling) imthedeafone: english imthedeafone: eglish comp imthedeafone: the most useless, waste of time class i have EVER BEEN IN imthedeafone: it competes with anatomy and physiology with palmer last year at notre dame imthedeafone: and that's realyl saying something imthedeafone: except for this class, we could only skip 3 and then she kicked us out Aramingoh22: oh my goodeness that sO FUNNY imthedeafone: WHICIH IS RIDICULOSU Aramingoh22: she didnt care he was late? imthedeafone: becuase it's so pointless, at 930, and we had it 3 days a week imthedeafone: she laughed at first imthedeafone: but then she looked at our fcaces imthedeafone: my class manipulated her pretty badly Aramingoh22: well i guess my teacher didnt afare either but he was like DRESSED i didnt even brush my teeth! imthedeafone: and liuke she saw our faces and like realized that she is the adult that should be responsible so she's like um..brian..um please see me after class, if you have time. imthedeafone: YEAH like i grabbed a carnation instant breakfast juicebox Aramingoh22: hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhagharioghajligjaflgkjl;askfjsa;ldfkjasdf;lkjasdf;lkjsdf;lkj imthedeafone: and i'm weraing the smae clothes for 3 days straight imthedeafone: and my hair is disgusting imthedeafone: and he had time to shower and put on jeans and pick out a belt imthedeafone: and do his hair up all nice Aramingoh22: is it the palm treee that people like put in their prfiles and are like *suimmer* imthedeafone: and tuck in his shirt imthedeafone: YES imthedeafone: LIKE imthedeafone: IT WAS A SCENE FROM AN ISLAND Aramingoh22: HAHAHAH Tuchk in hHIS SHIRT Aramingoh22: lollololololololol Aramingoh22: i hthnk i h=know what wone your tlaking about Aramingoh22: wOW HOW FRUSTRATING imthedeafone: and there were some like jewish symbols in there imthedeafone: yeah imthedeafone: like imthedeafone: it was completely rididuclous Aramingoh22: what was the peper on? imthedeafone: it was a reserach paper imthedeafone: it had to be like 7-9 pages imthedeafone: but we had sooooooo much requirements for it imthedeafone: mine was on alcohol imthedeafone: but i like alcohol so i did it on something i could actually argue against imthedeafone: so i did it on drunk driving Aramingoh22: LOAL BUT I LIEK ALCOHOL Aramingoh22: oh my gosh you rare GOS FUNNY imthedeafone: yeah for some reason i am this morning. hm. maybe it'sb eucase i got 2 hours of sleep last night and a total of like 12 altogether for the past 3 days imthedeafone: and i'm going completely insane becuase i still have a paper due tomrorow and my hardest exam imthedeafone: and my roommate cried when i told her last night imthedeafone: that i was leaving Aramingoh22: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHASDGKAHJKAHJAH Aramingoh22: AHHHHHHH Aramingoh22: what she say why sahe cry how you say it imthedeafone: well imthedeafone: she came in after talkingn tothe hall director, amy, who i talked to about moving imthedeafone: she gave me the final OK or whatever imthedeafone: and kc came in and was like i'm PISSED becuase someone other than my friends or maybe one of my friends went to amy and told her i party too much and drin ktoo much and that they're worreida bout em imthedeafone: aka me imthedeafone: and at first i was like ...um, no really?" imthedeafone: but then i was like i shoudl just be hoenst imthedeafone: so immediately after i said really, i said acutally... imthedeafone: i have to be honest imthedeafone: i told amy becuase i'm switching out of this room imthedeafone: and she said WHAT and she started to cry imthedeafone: and iw as like it's nothign against you, like i love you as a person (although she can be a HUGE HUGE MEAN BITCH at times so it kind of does have soemthign to do with that but mostly the other thing) but our lifestyles don't match up imthedeafone: and i need to really buckel down and do my work the way i'm supposed to me imthedeafone: by imthedeafone: be imthedeafone: my parenst are pissed and want me to bring my gardes up, and when you have a milllion peopel in here and you gys are all partying and pregaming, i wnat to go out too imthedeafone: (by "i want to go out too" i meant " i want to be able to study and sleep for more than 5 hours at a time in my room when i want to and i don't want to have to worry about waking up with white acne cream dots on my face with 2 girls and 2 hot guys in the room and i don't want to have to worry about being woken up at 5am when you and your friends come back in the take more shots together") (Comment on this)
Friday, December 15th, 2006
12:30 am	so im sorry i haven't written. i miss all of you so much. i'm sitting on my bed with my laptop on my lap. i assume that's what it's made for. i've been nervous to write in here because i thought justin would read this. he might. i don't know. but i do'n thtink he will. not for a while anyway. i am completely in love with him. like. the same amount with dan...times a few. maybe times 10. who knows. i justlove him so much. i relaly really hope things will work out with us. i don't know if i believe in god but i do pray that things work out with us. like this kid darren was talking to me about his ex grilfriend. they went out for 2 years and she just broke up with him and he was venting. and he went to steubenville and he said one of the best things he's done was keeping a journal for his future wife. and like writing letters to her and stuff. i think that's a really cool idea. i really am praying that we stay together for the next 4 years, and everyday after that. like he is the most amazing boy i've ever met. i would be so lucky to have him. UpperCut » Artists I » IVY » Ive Got A Feeling Oh yeah Baby, what can i do? I've been, out searching for you. I've got a feeling all i need is a love thats true Baby, what can i say? I know, this wont go away I've got a feeling all i need is to see today I've been watching the world pass by all around me I was letting the days go by till you found me Baby, what can i do? Ive been, out searching for you I've got a feeling all i need is a love thats true I've been watching the world pass by all around me I was letting the days go by till you found me i can't wait to see you guys! i want to run in fountains with you and play and laugh and jump and run together. i miss track. which is extremely insane. since i don't even like track. i'm sooo out of shape. i walked down a hill after getting wendy's and going to target today and i was out of breath ahhaaha. i'm watching felicity on dvd. i'm obsessed with it. like i'm just getting through freshman year. i didn't watch all of them thoroughly though.l they're soooo good. like i am obsessed with her! who is she going to pick!??!?!? ben or noel!/?!? cross country road trip or berlin?!?!? oh my god. i can't take the suspense. oh no. kc just brought in 2 extremely wasted girls. she is drunk too. she's very inconsiderate.they all hit their heads on the wall when they sat down. i miss you gusy (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
2:29 am	oh god. everyone is drunk. i'm sleeping so long tomorrow. i studied kinf o hard tis week. justin things i am going to cheat on him.; bt i just wnat to be with him. like. itold him i want a promise ring from hin. because i do. kc wrote all over her cousin's face inpermanaent marker. also justin hates me becaseu i kissed englangd. shit. i hate him. i only love justin. but lik e justin hates me. i got a twelve footer. shit. crap... look at hi. what is he doing. 5 am@??@@ what (Comment on this)
Friday, November 10th, 2006
9:48 am	i can't take the distance, i can't take the miles, i can't take the time until i get to see you smil i tried to write in my livejournal last night but i missed and i wrote in a word document instead. Ayo. Shit. Alll of these black boys were druukn and hitting on me. Only blsvk boyd likr mr. Dhiy. Dhit Shit. I only want tto be with justin. I love him so much. He is the only boy I want. I love him. I hate all boys exept you. An\d also. Eyebrow wave. And also. I 930 calsss……………… and joe freytag. And shit. msn. Shit. Fuck. Taxi. I paid for a lto Shit we’r talkiabopu krista.l he’s drunhkl but we have soethig special. Like I love oypu s o mmcuh. hahahaa also..i IMed my mom: i know i heard. hvae a goodnight. i'm afraid taht i paid too much at martino's but everyone got hit on by hot black boys.. but it's ok. except people too\k my fries. i lvcve ou oops. i was drunk when i went to englisha nd we had to give an oral presentation. and someone did a powerpoint and they wrote "ruff" instead of "rough". my professor was sitting right in front of me and i was permeating beer. but i go "RUFF RIDERS! what the hell!" and they had this like circus music playing and i was crakcing up. i still have the martino's stamp on my had. also justin looks extremely hot right now.. i don't deserve him. Current Mood: y r all of hte facesacryingrat (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
11:58 pm	watch you spin around in the highest heels, you are the best of the best ones haKUHNamatata31: im the fat one Auto response from imthedeafone: troubador826: Initiation rite of the Yao people of Malawi troubador826: its u girls troubador826: hahaahaha Auto response from haKUHNamatata31: biology. oh baby! haKUHNamatata31: hahaa but none of them are really fat bc they are like starving african children haKUHNamatata31: actually no haKUHNamatata31: im the one with the hat that sucks haKUHNamatata31: and did it 5 minutes be4 the picture was taken well. that's really true. justin and i are completely in love. today i outlined for a&p for 2.5 hours because i want to do ok on this test on monday. at 9, i went to gallagher to study and outline some more. around 1030, i got really tired and i couldn't study or concentrate anymore so i just left. i figured i'd go to bed by 11 and still get 9 hours of sleep if i get up at 8 and go to the caf, have some tea, and study some more. i get back into my room and kc has her friends there. they're fun and stuff but i guess because they ewnt to all girls schools and stuff, they're kind of dramatic a little. like it's just how girls are i guess. but they just talk about one another behind the backs. or something. i dont' konw. maybe not. but they were talking until now (1245) and i just wanted to go to sleep 2 hours ago. so i called justin at 11 and i was like can you go online? i know you have to register at 12 but can you talk for an hour? and he's like well i'm at marty's but we're not doing anything so i'll just go home. so he just left his friends to come talk to me. we're talking online and stuff and i called him to let him hear what the girls were saying and everything. one of them said "ok so i'm never mean or upset about any of this shit, but...." and justin started crackign up. keep in mind he was on speaker phone. needless to say, i had to hang up. so then justin just said how about we just listen to songs together at the same time for a while? we just listened to a couple of our songs from the night he came here and he sang them to me over webcam. all of this stuff was going on around us, like everyone is yelling and complainging and getting upset and we were just in our own world together. it was really romantici felt like i was in a movie. it's just so nice. i want to be with him everyday. i want to learn what love is with him. a thousand miles seem pretty far but they've got trains and planes and cars; i'd walk to you if i had no other way our friends will all make fun of us but we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way i might go out tomorrow night. i'mnot sure. i've never been to martino's. but i really want to do well on this test so i think i'm going to study for millions of hours. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
7:27 am	so...funny story. last night, i drank my coconut rum and coke before the game. i was having a grand old time: texting, cheering, laughing at other drunkards, watching the game on occasion. it was great. then keiran texts me and says "wot would your b/f think of alan coming to yours for holiday? he has no where else to go!" so i called my mom and i ask her and she's like well i guess invite him. it's family time but if he has no where else to go then invite him. so me and my drunken rum bottom call alan and say if ytou have no where else to go, you can cometo me house, which he immediately takes as "oh of course i want you to come to my house. please place me as your highest priority." which isn't terrible but it's supposed to be a last resort and now it's like his plan. oh, drunken nights. i really just want justin to come. like i was talking to justin and holidays are supposed to be spent with the one you love. and it's going to be 4 or 5 long days. and my birthday and my 5 mile run are during that week. crap. what am i goign to do with this kid for 5 days? like he's going to have to get drunk. there's no way around it. too bad he doesn't drink. fffffffffffffffffffffffffffff Current Mood: crap, yo. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, November 6th, 2006
12:21 pm	to drink or not to drink? that is the question we have a basketball game at 7 pm tonight. everyone is drinking. iw ant to but i have to study for a history quiz tomorrow. i might study early. it would be fun to get drunk on a monday with everyone else. like i could drinkin moderation. or i could just not drink and actually pull up my grdaes. who knows..... shit. Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
1:30 am	crap. those black boys though i was drunk. ad all i could think fo was you. shti. why did you leave. ia m drunk and imss you. why are you not with me everyday of my life. i miss you and i love you. crap.molly and laura and laura are not going to be happy when they read this. btu i love you. when isee you in this stupid webcam, i just want to hold your hand everyday. you are the one fo r ne. please let me share my day everyday with you. i love you. (Comment on this)
1:26 am	fuck. i've been at a party for 4 hou4rs. it was fun. i won in beer pong with matthew on the fourth house from the left on regent. adn i just tried to hit pizza and the boy eric was like aht the fuck. are youdrunk. and i was lik eshit l ahahahahaahhahha. i'm so drukn. i'm sorry. i didn't mean to. iust meant to heat my pizza up. crap. i'm so embaressed. also i ate domino='s crust. how embaressed. they jknw who my roommate is because she's drunk all of the time. bu tn ow i'm embraressed. shit. they know eveyron eknows. crap. but oh welll. i won a free movie renta at our movie store for last thursday's best costume. i also everyone loves kc. hahaaaaaa. cap. kc loves allan. he's the oterh british boy. actually she does'nt love imn but he looks just like kieran or justin. the same thing. they're the same. crap. h=shitl. i'm drunk. we won beer pong. i have a 930 tomorrow crap i am stupid. but i've been studying for 72 hours straight. i just had a huge conversatoin with justin agboutr me beitng with him. i thin we both want to be togheter. becaues like i love him more than anything. iw atn to be with him\.... "the problem wasn't that gab went to yale. the problem was that gabe wasn't harry. " ahhahaha. cra;p. justin knows i'm drunk all of the time. i was so in control before. just not now because i'm in my room. but i just want justin. no on else. justin is my harry. and i just want him. he is so perfect for me. and even if my parents and grandpa want me to be with someone who's good at things and perfect at things and presidents of things and stufff like that.... who cares. i just wnat \to be wiht justin. he is the one for meand i would belucky to hve him. cra[ i would be so luckyh. i love him. sol muhc. i want to hold his hand every weekn. i lvove him more than anythign Current Mood: hahahaah kc's drunk (Comment on this)
12:41 am	oh crap. we just came in. it's pouring rain adn alyse adn ijust walked in. oyt everyone thought he was a lesbian. shjit. i have a 2"30 c;ass. shit. and a 930. she was hawaiinn punch. with golden palace.com writeen on his back. with fake cloood on hit s back. we just talked forlike twentey minutes about how he woul dnever ehacted onmy and stuff. .like he would never cheat on me. and dan is piss ass drunk. i just changed in front of justin. and he said i'n really drunk. crap. i ony waht to e= wutg gun, and the boys said i was tghe best femaleplayer they've ever played wither, and then we went to the clocktowen. and then we met krienan and then we alllane]. the other english boy. and hten i wen tto the aprty. and i l ove justin .i love him so much i jsut want to be with him everyday. i lovehim i can't believe this theought i was a lesbain (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 29th, 2006
1:50 am	so i just started texting dan. and dan was like well i'm going back to krista's room. and i go what? where? why are you going to krista's room? and he's like well i'm going to krista's room because justin is there. and i was like well justin...he told me she was in buffalo with her boyfriend? and dans' like well i'm piss ass drunk but he is at krista's room right now. and i've been calling him for exaclty 3 hours since i'vfe been home wiating for him to clal me back. or answer my texts and he hasn't. whatever. inkow that he loves me. it's just te thought ofhim with krista for three hours. it's just that i've been here with nattany for three hours wiating for jsutin to return my calls. and he hasnt' an di've been texting him so then i start talking himn on the phone and he was like i'm going to meetahim at krista's and i was like well wait...he told me she was in buffalo visiting her boyfriend. and he was like well oops. sorry. so i call justin and the shit hits the fan and kc talks to him and yellsat him and i'm like whatever i't fine have your sleepover with him. i dont' care. it doesn'tm atter. i dont care. (Comment on this)
1:06 am	did i mention how we were at the bus stop and i was leaning on the kiernan lovelock or locklove and he gave his jacket to this other girl becasue he was grinding with her. which is terible. so theni drew a ring on my finger and toldhim if anyhting at all we coul dcucld ena only cuddle because i lvoe jsutin. so whatever we were at the bus stop and somebody pushed us because it was ridiculous and people were pushing us everywhere and we got pushed and he grabbed me with both of his arms which is god because i couldtn' stand up. i jsut wanted to \mention that. we're watching mean girls and ti's ridiculous and the girl is from the notebook and she is kc. which is out of control. it's kc's personality in a movie. and funny. ok. i miss youguys. and i just want justin to answer me. i miss him so much. and i really love him. like i've been texting dan for awhile. but like i love justin. i kind of want to be with him everuyday. every single day i want to d ehold his hand everyday. (Comment on this)
1:00 am	well maybe, we were made, we were made for each other,and maybe the world wil look this way forever oh hey. i just went to a halloween party. a huge halloween party. there were SO many people there. like 500 +. it was out of control. i saw kc but last night she was too drunk to take care of herself so we couldn't be aroun dher. just because she doesn't know when to start. so i just held hands with alyssa the entire night. alyssa is another ot with red hair. we want to room togehter for thenext couple of years. i relaly like her becuase our personalities are similar. she will mkae a good OT. so i wen twith her and ilost her for a while but i was with kc and then i was with this boy who was snday's brother's roommmated but then he was with these girls soi wasn't with him. and alyssa and i peedeed in the parkin glot between cars hahhaaha. and then like we partied for a wehile in thie private room and saw a bunch of people we knew and then we went outside becase the cops came and we had to run from them. which was funnyt. yhere were like 3 cop cars hahahaaahaha. hahha. oh well. so thenthere is a fire alarm in kuhlman, the dorm, so i make alyussa and her friends (one i want to call maria because of laura smith's maria) i make them all come to subyway and i get a 12 inch chicekn parm for 509. whatever. they eat half but it's only money. so icom eback in and some boys let me in and it's only like 1245 and the ra's are still there crap kc just got home and she's wasted. but i am drunk too. aslo when we were taking shots in alyssa's room, i left my vodka there. and their RA walked into the room looking for alcohol and we all pretended it wasn't there but there was this GIANT thing of vodka liek a half gallon. or someting. int he sink. and this one girl hannah hid it. this party was like out of a movie. like eveyone was drunk before and then we got jungle juice and beer. and it was pefect. also krista colville (justin's sleep buddy) is at buffalo so there's no worries. imiss you guys so much. kc ordered pizza. and she left the door open.l so i'm just waiting fo her. Current Mood: drunk (Comment on this)
Friday, October 27th, 2006
12:45 am	this is going to bring me to my knees; i just want to hold you close to me i aslo have to memorize trillion bones for anatomy. and also i have a pratical and i have to be abel to tell apart every like cell and tissue and muscle exsiting in the universe. im failing. that's what i'm stuyding at this very moment. it's terrible. there are serisouly like 500 parts of all of the bones. we are all going to fail this. it's impossible. my RA said she seriosuly studied everynight for 3 hours for this for 2.5 weeks and she only got a 72%. that's really bad. i only have average Cs in A&P lab and lecture. i HAVE to bring those up. i'm not accepted into my program if i have 2 or more c's in my prerequisite classes for the OT program.hmm crap. i am doomed. DOOMED. on a lighter note..i bought a litte boy's spiderman costume for 25 dollars today. it's relaly funny. i love it because it's like a one piece spy suit. i'm wearing it to all of my parties this weekend and next tuesdya. well i might not be able to go out on sat night unless i start studying my bones now. shit. did yo have to knwo the skull too? because we do. and all of the nooks and crannies and holes and whtever the hell else is in there. i'm so screwed. i talked to justin on the phone today. we were both busy studying. he has hell week and ih ave hell exams on monday and tuesday. he said krista wants him to be a boxer because she's being a hawaiaiin slut so they can be hawaiaiin punch toghteer. i'm very jealous. even though i know he would never cheat on me and i know that he loves me. it's justbecuase i heard him talking about her that one time when he was wasted and he talkeda bout how hot she was and stuff. whatever. i miss you guys. i hope your costumes are good this year Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
12:05 am	um oops. Laura says: hi baby im a doofus im coming to visit you with laura!! sometime! i dont know when though! yayy!!! laura says she is a doofus like you can't talk about houses and stuff and not have expectancy to get married or be together after four years ok because that is getting my hopes up and i don't want to get my hopes up and expect something that is never going to com eok? like i want to be with you and if you want me to be with just you, then that's waht i'm goign to do because i want to keep you for myself and i want to give myself to just you and taht's what i wanted to say but kc is in the room go study you can't study when you're distracted justin says: ok, i love you so much Laura says: ok i love you more than anything i just want us to work out in the end justin says: i do too Laura says: ok i love you justin says: i love you bye Laura says: bye baby i love you justin says: i love you You have stopped viewing webcam with justin. justin has stopped viewing webcam with you. Laura says: you're cute justin says: i try Laura says: it works i'm sorry i was mean to you justin says: i know this is behind us, but just thought u should hear this. i just got this text from krista saying, "Thanks for listening to me all the time. Just wanted to say hope things are going well. Cuz they FINALLY are for me : ) , thanks. Laura says: thanks for showing that to me justin says: yea, i've just been helping her out because she has a hard time with communicating with her bf Laura says: i know i know i just i don't know it's hard when someone else is sleeping where you're supposed tobe but i understand because it is comforting it's just hard to picture it's like mr brightside that song like justin says: i dont like that song it reminds me of meg but yea, i know that wasnt the best decision, but its in the past but i have to finish this, i'll call you in a little bit Laura says: yeah i'm sorry go ahead i love you so much i just miss you but like if yo uwant me to i will wait 4 years for you justin says: i love u to Laura says: or however long you want me to justin says: sorry i didnt respond i was in the bathroom....... we'll make it work don't worry yourself to much ok ill call u bye Laura says: ok love oyu bye i love you. i will wati for however long as you want me to . i just want to be with yo uin the end. which s bad. whatever you wahnt. i'll wait the 5 years. you can do whatever you want to. jus tbe wiht me please troubador826: hey troubador826: sry imthedeafone: oh hye imthedeafone: it'sok troubador826: im back now i was busy imthedeafone: same thign imthedeafone: ok troubador826: i went to see resevoir dogs tonihgt troubador826: as a play troubador826: and got so high before i wnet troubador826: what a great play imthedeafone: hahaahahahahaahaha imthedeafone: i'im watching sex andthe city troubador826: m Laura is searching for: imthedeafone: hey laurmmc: hi imthedeafone: shlould i eat my double salami imthedeafone: or no? laurmmc: yeh imthedeafone: save it? laurmmc: no esat it \ imthedeafone: because i have fritos imthedeafone: i'm sorry imthedeafone: i'm typing in my journal laurmmc: no salami laurmmc: eat the fritos another time laurmmc: maybe imthedeafone: i know you don' tlike alcohol but i'm using it. laurmmc: ya s We couldn't share your search for "imthedeafone: hey laurmmc: hi imthedeafone: shlould i eat my double salami imthedeafone: or no? laurmmc: yeh imthedeafone: save it? laurmmc: no esat it \ imthedeafone: because i have fritos imthedeafone: i'm sorry imthedeafone: i'm typing in my journal laurmmc: no salami laurmmc: eat the fritos another time laurmmc: maybe imthedeafone: i know you don' tlike alcohol but i'm using it. laurmmc: ya s" with justin. 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Laura says: imthedeafone: hey laurmmc: hi imthedeafone: shlould i eat my double salami imthedeafone: or no? laurmmc: yeh imthedeafone: save it? laurmmc: no esat it \ imthedeafone: because i have fritos imthedeafone: i'm sorry imthedeafone: i'm typing in my journal laurmmc: no salami laurmmc: eat the fritos another time laurmmc: maybe imthedeafone: i know you don' tlike alcohol but i'm using it. laurmmc: ya s crap i am ustin i mean i am abusing this converstaiong ut i love everyign he sidt o me afterwards i am stupiod it's 230 i amd dumb i love him more thananything and he is questiononig being with memayhbe but ilove him i don't question it anymore as long as he's with me. whatever i dont care i just want him to be strong for me and i will be strong for him i just want to be with him i ove him fmore than anyhnign he is myfaviorite pesron i love him so much more than anything crap i hope no one reads this i jst lvoe him so much i love him more than anything. crap. i want to be with him sobadly. i'm sorry for lying to you. i hate being drukn becaseu you never believe what i am saying to you but i am being honest when i say that ilove you. more than anyhting. you are the ony i want ot be with. plesae be with me. i lveo you babby. 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Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
1:44 am	And it takes no time to fall in love, but it takes years to know what love is i just bought fritos. and also a double salami stick. wshich is gorss. like i woudl never eat this. but right now...excellent. amazing. incredible. yada yada. actually it is quite good. ew. this is disgusting. logically it is the most disgusting thing i've ever put in my mouth. but this tastes really good. let me tel you what is in here. :beef and pork, water, salt, corn syrup, hydrolyzed soy protein, dextrose, spices, mustard, monosodium glutamate, sodium phosphate, chili pepper, natural smoke flavor, paprika, sodium erythorbate flavoring, lactic acid starter culture, sodium nitrate. the most disturbing? lactic acid starter culture. i'm pretty sure i did that as an 8th grade science experiemnt. i'm not even kidding remmeber that track meet in pennsylvania in the hills in the middle of nowhere junior year that was just a scrimage for just the girls? remmeber that. and there was that black javeline thrower and i was supposed to be throwing javeline. that's insane. also. um. i forget. i miss sleeping with all of you. crap i have a classs in 7 hours. justin just alled. i love him. crap. this is like dan no? ut like dan hurt me real bad. so will justin? he says he wont' butl ike all boys say that. but i believe him. he is different. inspected and passed by the department of agriculture. there is no nutrition guide with saturated fat and fat content and sodium and calories. it just says inspected and passed by the department of agriculture. i am too durnk now. i will regret these fritos when i am durnk and trying to go to class tomorrow. but iw il. next tuesday is halloween. maybe i will skip next weds. kc just fell trying to go to the bathroom. not good. adi just laled justing to say i love you. i don thitnk he knows i'm drunk. i'm stupid. i hsould tell him. i keep thiking he will love me no matter whatbut people get fed up at a certain point and what if this is it? what ifthat's it for him and he's like i di'nt want to be with her. crap. sorry. i don't know. he oes love me. i love him .i want to call him all of the time and tell him i am in love with him. bt like that quote from jason mraz in life is wonderfull = crap kc has been gone forever. maybe she died. should i check on her? she is probably with a boy. crap i know you guys dont agree with alcohol so i'm sorry. but i don't know. this is an honest answer. i guess i am liberal if i were to vote. my mom wants me to. but i don't know enoughabout the opposing sides to vote. like it was stupid to register becasue i don't konw the difference between right wing and left wing. whatever. i just miss all of you. explosions in the sky. i love those songs. And it takes no time to fall in love But it takes you years to know what love is And it takes some fears to make you trust It takes those tears to make it rust It takes the dust to have it polished Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle i want to know what love is with justin. he is like aden. but better. he is like big. i love him. crap. i o'nt know what love is. but i do. And it takes no time to fall in love But it takes you years to know what love is i do. i love him. i wnta to be with him all of the time just alled me out and said i are ypi drunk and i said yeah and he said why don't you talk to me. and i wish i ahd recoreded him. bt toobad. iloe vhim. morethank anyhtimg. whtaever i should go to bed. goodngiht. thsak for listneingi@! AHHAHAHA crap justin just aca;;omg ,e dma (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:40 am	he takes off her dress now, let me go. i just can't look it's killing me. and taking control Laura says: hi baby im a doofus im coming to visit you with laura!! sometime! i dont know when though! yayy!!! laura says she is a doofus like you can't talk about houses and stuff and not have expectancy to get married or be together after four years ok because that is getting my hopes up and i don't want to get my hopes up and expect something that is never going to com eok? like i want to be with you and if you want me to be with just you, then that's waht i'm goign to do because i want to keep you for myself and i want to give myself to just you and taht's what i wanted to say but kc is in the room go study you can't study when you're distracted justin says: ok, i love you so much Laura says: ok i love you more than anything i just want us to work out in the end justin says: i do too Laura says: ok i love you justin says: i love you bye Laura says: bye baby i love you justin says: i love you You have stopped viewing webcam with justin. justin has stopped viewing webcam with you. Laura says: you're cute justin says: i try Laura says: it works i'm sorry i was mean to you justin says: i know this is behind us, but just thought u should hear this. i just got this text from krista saying, "Thanks for listening to me all the time. Just wanted to say hope things are going well. Cuz they FINALLY are for me : ) , thanks. Laura says: thanks for showing that to me justin says: yea, i've just been helping her out because she has a hard time with communicating with her bf Laura says: i know i know i just i don't know it's hard when someone else is sleeping where you're supposed tobe but i understand because it is comforting it's just hard to picture it's like mr brightside that song like justin says: i dont like that song it reminds me of meg but yea, i know that wasnt the best decision, but its in the past but i have to finish this, i'll call you in a little bit Laura says: yeah i'm sorry go ahead i love you so much i just miss you but like if yo uwant me to i will wait 4 years for you justin says: i love u to Laura says: or however long you want me to justin says: sorry i didnt respond i was in the bathroom....... we'll make it work don't worry yourself to much ok ill call u bye Laura says: ok love oyu bye we are taking too many shots. (Comment on this)
12:56 am	theyre going 2 bed & my stomach is sick & its all in my head but she's touching his chest now.... i just talkedt o justin for an hour. it'a s tuesday an i'm drunk. this is bad news. kc just wanted to tak ea shot or two. so we did. or like 5 or 6. who knows. whatever. so kc and i were being funny and we did krista's pose with her boyfriend and her in a tie with huge boobs on my chair. and were making fun of her and stuff and he's like shutup she's my firned. and like i knew that and stuff but it was so funny because she's weird or soemthing. so justin was like compared to her relationsihp with her boyfriend or wahtever we have something so much better. their relationship is so shallow compared to ours. and he apologized a million times and kc and i made eye contat and she kept grabbing her chest like "aw" and i know and sutf flike i defintely don't deserve him at all. it's just so sad without him. ilke i just want to be with him all of the time. it's so sad here without him! i want to be able to hold his hands when we walk together and to go get pizza together and share crappy meals togehter and share a bed at night. and i asked him if he is willing to committe to me because i well i spelled that wrong, but if he can commit to me because i want a committment like i don't want to be going about this and thinking like oh maybe we will end uptogether and maybe not. i want to know alreayd if we will or if we won't. i'm tired of playing games. and i told hima bout dan andn how he hurt me and how i committed myself to him and hewent out with millions of girls and justin's like "i'm not dan. i don't know what i can do to povfe it to you. i want you and only you and i wantt o make this work. and i am genuinely honoest with you and id on't know whatelse i can do. if i had waited a few days, you woudl have found out and it woul dhave hurt more [inset me being a dick to justin here and cheating on him and never telling him and him finding out anywya] and i want you to be honest with me all of the time too." but like. i dont know. he talked about how he can't commit fully to me because he's not ready to get married and if we get married, then we get married, but he is not ready for an engagement which i'm not either but i want the comfort of one kind of. which is exaclty why you're not supposed to get engaged if you are not fully there yet. but i don't konw. i just want to be with him every single day. but i don't know. like we might not be in love in a few years. which is scary to think of. ut like this whole entry is gay. cra[/ i have become a boring stupid girl who is in a 4 month relationshp and thinks she is in love. i am stupid. we took too many shots. i don't konw. i am so dumb. i am in love with him like i was with dan at this point. and also i am very drunk. i'm sorry i keep writing entries on this... i'll just post our conversation and be done with it. well i have a c- in philosophy. we've only had one paper and i got that grade in it. i wrote that grade becuase spelling c- out seemed too difficult at the time. and i need to learn a MILLION bones for my next two a&p exams. crap. kc is always drunk. i get drunk sometimes. last firdya, igot so drunk. i didn't remember buying subway with felipe but i did. that's not good. he said he put me to bed but i partied with kc and her friends and cousin a few hours later. so that's not good. ij ust want to slow dance with justin for hours. this is bad. i shoudlnt' be like stupid. like jess and bob have been together for a long time right. or like james and jacqui. but no on ereally knows where they stand with the other. why is everyting so up in the air? shouldn't we just know? you will be together or you won't. i dont konw. i'm not sure. we're watching sex and the city. i think jon keller was my aiden. aden? aden. probably. like katy aden. whoc knows. but whatever. i think he was just because he was like always there fo rme and stuff. but big was dan verdel. like i usedto think dan an di had a connection that couldn't be broken. but now that i'm with justin, like he shows me what boys are supposedto be. like he is perfect. i love him. like iwant to be with him. but i don't want to tell him i will be with him for four years if he does not want to be. and he said he wantsto be and he willl do anythign to make this work but like i dont know. i want to wear something on me that shows my love for him. like i draw a ring on my ringer and label it "justin" when i go outsometimes hahahahaa. acutally only once. but it was really funny. kc just farted really loud and i'm watchyign sex and the city. i don't know. whatever. i just love him. but iw ant him for myself. i don't want him to be hooking up with hot girls that have big boobs and stuff. like she has a hot body and huge boobs. but like. i don't know. and when i said that to him he was like "i don't even like boobs!" but i heard him atlka bouat it. whatever. i am obsessed with him. but in a good way. i just never stop thinking about him. ilove him.and i miss all of you! let's go to fucking canada! 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Monday, October 23rd, 2006
8:14 pm	i'm a gigantic hypocrite Laura says: what are you typing. good god. justin says: on a slightly more serious note, i would feel bad if i didnt tell you, that i slept in krista's bed last night, now i knw that sounds really bad, but before you freak out, u should know its nothing to worry about and let me explain to you why Laura says: ok justin says: trust me, its just that ive been talking to lately because ive been having a hard time this weekend without u, like u know the last time i talked to u i just started crying talking to her lately* its just getting really hard and all, and she is going through the same thing and its nice to have someone to talk to about that kinda of stuff, and then like the night beofore we were lieing in her bed, and it was just like a comfort but like its not nething near sexual like not once did that thought cross my mind at all and its not even close to lieing in bed with you its just like lieing with a friend we both know where are heart is, and we both try to make things easier for each other Laura says: our* justin says: ok our but like it eases the stress just knowing someone close to you cares about how u feel like close as in distance but like i never once think about her the way i would think about ne girl i would want a relationship with, its just a friend thing like there wasnt even a time where either of us considered making a move on each other, like she just cryed on me the one night and i rubbed her shoulder and told her it was going to be alright, its like that kind of comfort Laura says: ok last night ir sat justin says: i only stayed there last night, i kinda fell asleep for like a half hour the other night, but thats cuz i was buzzed and tired, and then went back at like 330 4 laura there is no reason to worry Laura says: ok justin says: like at all Laura says: ok justin says: and i was debating whether to tell u or not, because i thought there was a chance you would take it in a completly wrong way, but i said i wanted you honest with me about everything, so i cant go against that Laura says: yeah i'd rather you tell me so thanks justin says: does it bother you alot that i did that Laura says: it would be pretty hypocritical of me to say yes justin says: this doesnt havent much to do with ur past, i just want you to tell me what you think honestly like im completly in love with you, and the reason i decided to do it was because i felt liike shit not being able to see you and i need someone to talk to it about Laura says: i mean but it does kind of have something to do with my past. i'm glad you told me. and i know how you feel and everything. and it's not like you can sleep in dan's bed or s a boy's bed and it be socially acceptable justin says: yea, like you have to take gender out of this to a degree, i dont look at krista in a sexual way at all, but as a friend who can relate and help me get thru the hard times and i guess u just have to trust me on that Laura says: yeah but isn't that how it always starts out i do trust you i think i'm upset because like i know that i can't be the one to sleep with you in your bed justin says: yea, like that is so much better then ne1 can offer me, and there was a complete difference from what me and u share and what me and krista share, like we are strictly friends who open up to each other, and comfort each other, but we both no what we want and who we want and it was comforting i know its a hard thing to realize, but it doesnt hurt what we have in neway its just helped me get thru what was bothering me, like when i was talking to you and i just started crying laura talk to me Laura says: ok i understand justin says: do u?, like its something completly different then like possibly wanting to be with someone else its a friend Laura says: i know justin says: i would never cheat on you, you know that right? Laura says: yeah but sometimes things happen justin says: yea but im not a dick Laura says: but i am justin says: and this means to much to me no, u were unsure and wanted to try new things or see if someting else was out there actually not really new things Laura says: it's just taht when this happened with dan, he started to have close friends like kristen and katie too. and then it developed into more justin says: i'm not dan Laura says: i know justin says: and u and dan werent separated by distance Laura says: i now i'm being stupid about this. i just don't want to lose you justin says: you could see each other and there was no need for hhim to be close to other people listen laura, you know i love yu you* i have to get ready for my game, but we can still talk Laura says: ok i know justin says: baby, its really fine, she has a bf and i have you, we both know what we're doing now if she was single you possibly could be more concerned, but its just because we relate so well and can make each others pain easier u really have to not worry about this like if i really wanted something with her, i would have kept it from you and not told you Laura says: yeah even though you're the one who's alla bout honesty justin says: yea, and i would have told you that i wanted to try something with her but thats not even close to reality Laura says: ok whatever. i guess if you were to go try knew things i'd rather you go and wait to see if you would come back so i woul dbe sure it is what you wanted and i'm not really in a position to criticize any decisions you make with other girls justin says: laura, you really dont have to worry about this i would tell you otherwise Laura says: i guess it's just because i kind of figured something, even if it's not somethign big, was going on with her on sat or wahtever. and i knw it's nothing i don't know. i just want to be the one who sleeps next to you everynight you said you wouldn't tell me justin says: well saturday night we just talked the whole night Laura says: yeah justin says: so i guess ur not a big fan of the idea of me and her helping each other out Laura says: i undersatnd where you're coming from. like is aid i think that's a huge part of the reason i even went to chris in the first place what is that a condrom justin says: good one Laura says: i'm funny justin says: thats a condomm got it for free Laura says: just don't be using that justin says: they were giving them out the day you came hah ok Laura says: how ironic it just sucks becuase like if you start doing that everynight then who knows what it will develope into later i don't know i know i'm being dumba bout this i just dont want to lose you justin says: i never planned on doing it everynight Laura says: yeah but what if it ends up being everynight justin says: and if u dont want me to, i wont nemore Laura says: no it's fine justin says: and if she ever breaks up with her bf i wont do it, deal? Laura says: whatever it doesn't matter justin says: ok i have to go, im late but i'll talk to u later tonight, just think about it for a lil bit and we'll talk again ok i love you so much Laura says: ok bye love you You have stopped viewing webcam with justin. justin has stopped viewing webcam with you. i am a gigantically large hypocrite. he just slept with her (krista) and i know i shouldn't be jealous because like i obvisuyl dated another boy for two weeks and i wasa a jerk about it and i didn't tell him but once i realized that i wantedt o be with justin and only justin i didn't do anything to jeopardize my relationhsip with justin. like i cut off all ties or wahtever. and he said she laid on him and stuff. it's just hard to imagine him being with her and that it would keep going ong even after i got upset about it all. i don't know. i'm being such a freakin hypocrite. it's just i don't know. i'm really jealous. i'm not sleeping with other boys and i'm staying away from chris and other boys becuase i don't want to jeopardize anyhting with justin. so now we're tlaking but i'm upset about it becuase he's laying with her at night and she's sleeping on him and that's how realtionships develope becuase they're telling each other everything. and he was hoenst with me though. like he told me everything about what happened. just not when it was happening or when i asked if he made out with her he didn't tell me he slept with her. id on't know why i'm so upset about it. i guess because this is how it started with dan and then dan ended up leaving or wahtever immediately after acquiring a "new best friend". i don't know i know i'm being the jealous girlfirned and i'm trying to stop being stupid it just upsets me becuase hse's pretty and has big boobs and she's so flirtatious. i don't know. 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